Happy Mother's Day

I am keeping a journal for Blake for the first year of his life (hopefully I can continue beyond the first year but no guarantees) and this is what I wrote for him on Mother's Day. (I am a very simplistic writer and not that great at it but at least I can write things down!)

Dear Blake,

Today is my very first Mother's Day! I love being a mommy and am so happy that you are what made it possible. Being a mom has changed me completely. I love for you and care for you so deeply. I am greatly affected at the thought of something happening to you or of you growing up and being far away from me. I know that you will never fully understand how great my love is for you, which is why I wanted to keep this journal for you. In hopes that you will get a glimpse of the love that your Daddy and I have for you. In addition to having it written down, I hope that we demonstrate it to you daily as well so that you will never have a moment of doubt of our love for you.

This Mother's Day is very special since you are the first baby to make it into the world and really make me a mommy. I still feel the loss of my previous pregnancies and know that those babies will always hold a place in my heart. I loved them from the first moment I knew I was pregnant but never was able to experience the joy of meeting them. That's why you, Blake, are so special to me. You were the one that the Lord wanted us to care for as our first earthly child. I am so blessed to have you and my life is so much more richer with you in it. You bring joy and awe to our lives in a different way than we had experienced it before.

Daddy and I are so proud of you and love you a million times over. Happy Mother's Day to me indeed!

love,

Mommy